Does a Chameleon have true colors?

I can't seem to get passed my desire to be my own person lately. The only problem is that if I open up about who I really am, there are so many people who wont like it because I am not what they expect me to be. Partly because it doesn't exactly match how I was raised, and partly because I learned over the years to be a chameleon and blend into my surroundings. So it didn't matter who I really was I just fit into the background and went with the crowd. It's led to some of the best and worst memories I've ever had.

Being a chameleon means that often you let life pass you by because you're too afraid to draw attention to yourself and have people catch on to the real you. It means giving people only glimpses of who you really are, then letting them extrapolate from there. It means making sure you say just enough to let them feel like they included you, but not enough to give anything away. It means teaching yourself to be guarded at all times so as not to chase anyone away. It means never being able to fully open up to those who are supposed to be closest to you because they will never understand.
I have known who I am and what I am for most of my life, but when you grow up with a conservative christian upbringing, in conservative christian schools and summer camps, with conservative christian families, if you have any part of who you are that doesn't fit into their world, you hide it. You don't let them know, because as much as they teach love and acceptance, they don't practice it very well. You only get love and acceptance if you are sorry for how you are and working to stop being that way. Then you get all the love and acceptance in the world. However if you don't believe you are wrong, and you believe that you are who you are supposed to be, then you get condemnation, and hatred, and become an outcast. Moving in with my ex wife before we were married proved that to me all to well. Doesn't matter what you think is right or wrong, doesn't matter how you personally feel about it, if it doesn't fit in their beliefs, you are wrong.
Now I am glad that everyone around me has something to believe in. I am glad that they have found their purpose in life and that it keeps them feeling fulfilled. Just hate being looked down on for not getting that same fulfilled feeling that they get. I am tired of not being allowed to be myself because it might look bad, or it might upset others, or it's not how I was raised. So until the day that I can finally get the courage to just live my life my way, I shall stay a chameleon and blend in and pretend none of this is real and this post doesn't exist, because if I don't specifically share it no one is going to read it anyways. Why? Because no one actually cares that much.