#BertsRants

I keep being told that I need to stop being so negative on social media all the time now, that it’s not good for me. I am being told that I need to focus on just the positives to help with my anxiety. So I'm supposed to ignore the rampant corruption and hypocrisy around me? The problem with me removing myself from the negative is that I see this whole country as a negative right now. I see Christian America as a negative. I see family and friends who I used to respect as the negative. If I remove myself from the negative to help the anxiety then I remove myself from most the things and people in my life. I can't look online, or watch TV, or talk to family and friends, without being reminded the wrong path this country is on. I can't see people I respected praising a man who personifies the opposite of everything they taught me growing up, and not want to call them out on it. How am I supposed to rely on God when I'm being told by those same people that this horr...

Just in case I ever forget, life always has a way of reminding me that I never have been and never will be one of the "cool kids". I am a awkward geek for life and I need to finally finish accepting that I just don't fit in anywhere else. Will always be over looked, doubted, picked last, picked on, the butt of jokes, and left behind. That is my lot in life and I need to accept it. Very few people actually can stand to spend that much time with me, and even fewer can keep from talking about me behind my back. If it weren't for Paige and my children, I'd have no confidence at all. People complain that I stop talking to them, but no one initiates any conversations with me. People back out of plans with me so often that now when I make plans i spend more time on my back up plan because thats what I expect to happen. My anxieties are too much baggage for anyone to handle, and my health issues are viewed as a crutch. This is not a woe is me status, actually this is an ...